post birthday update

As the dust of my birthday celebrations soar off like motes in bright light I wake up the day after to realize I'm a year younger than I thought I'd be all year long - ha ha ha. What a hoot!

Around this time last year I was in such a horrid place and space in my life that you'd have to be a special kind of horror for me to wish it upon you - yes, really. It is no wonder that it felt like I lost a whole year of my life coming through it.

Although I could most likely document a perfectly detailed blow by blow - it was not so much each piece but rather how each of the pieces fell into place and played out that led to and accumulated into the whole shebang.

After countless desperate and futile efforts of thrashing around a roller coastering sea of dead ends and disappointments - in all honesty I cannot tell you how it is I finally found which way would lead up and out.

Lucky me I did - out of the blue.  Between one week and the next - all is well in my world and I am well in my world.

Happy Birthday to me!

martyrs, mystics, monsters

"There is no way on the spiritual quest to avoid demonic forces. At the very least the seeker carries them within himself, in the form of his own passions and illusions. At various stages of the path, he must confront and deal with each of them in one way or another." - "Wrathful Deities" by Edwin Bernbaum, Parabola Magazine [Volume 6: Number 4]

The age old debate over fate and free will has wound from discussion to debacle between friend and foe. 

The overly righteous purport them self as idealist, believer or victim transforming mere mortal into maligned martyr.

The masses seek and elect their hero and assign mysterious mystical magic upon often too human a being.  

Such leaps of faith often disappoint at the least and at its worst lead to massive misfortune when monsters of their own creation break their molds.  

Rather must we each embrace our shadow self [the demon within] and acknowledge all of who we truly are.

The path to our enlightenment involves moving past our demons to honor our own divinity.

of fathers, padres & daddy issues

We were once a conquered land, ruled by the church back in the time of the Inquisition. Many old families can trace their ancestry back to their parish priest. Unfortunately, long after we rebelled and won our independence, priests continued fathering illegitimate families.

Today being Father's Day, I wonder how they opt to celebrate the day with their families and in their communities. Overtly or covertly? Acknowledged or denied? Condemned or ignored?

Our great great great [to the nth degree] grandmother was the housekeeper of the old Spanish priest in our province. She bore him many children in his lifetime. And when he passed and was replaced by a new and younger priest, her housekeeping duties extended to bearing him his own set of even more children.

To this day our family back home populate a whole village which has since grown into a town and then expanded into a city. From the mayor to the janitor we can trace bloodlines and lineages to all our relations.

In our tiny agricultural island inter-marrying among cousins is not uncommon. Several families have generations of first cousins marrying first cousins. Originally intended to keep the land undivided
but who knows for what reasons long after.

Family issues tend to be complex to begin with. With relations and histories going on both sides - these are bound to be compounded even more. Today I wonder how many are truly celebrating a happy father's day?

travel tales, trails & travails

Rethinking Evolution: The Ten Precepts of Sacred Space Design - Life can be described as the outward spherical resonance of atomic energy contained by the inward gravitational pressure of cubic space, crystallizing according to a recursive orthogonal harmonic lattice of (I)-damping rings.

Atomic resonance as a framework of life is logical and sensible given that everything is energy and vibrates at a certain frequency. The geometry of life traces back to one universal pattern of harmonic convergence - the circle of life, the sphere of our existence, our cyclical pattern.

The physiology of our body and human system reveals this pattern in microcosm. In macrocosm the pattern is manifest in our planet and solar system. Consciousness is the filter by which awareness and perception focus and function harmonically.

Let us open our minds to an evolutionary theory guided by the physics of harmonics that is flexible enough to adjust to our changing environment.

the push & pull in growth & expansion

In our drive to produce and advance, priorities can grow conflicted. In development the priority is meeting challenges and expectations of growth and expansion. In production the priority is doing the right thing at the right time and doing both well. Implementation and management of development and production greatly influence outcome and advancement.

In essence, whatever "it" is - the goal of development is to get it done [to achieve] and the goal of production is to keep it running [to accomplish]. Often we are torn between future benefits and the current effort required to attain them which may cause us to balk or abandon “it”.

To succeed requires balancing many things. Some things are more obvious - organization, preparation and preparedness. Other elements may be less tangible - clarity, commitment and perseverance. More difficult even is maintaining the balance throughout the whole creative process as each and every one of these demand and assert themselves.

When action outweighs concern [or any issue], then we arrive at the right time to do it. It is a decision we take on our own and commit to in order to make it happen. Such is our life cycle – step by step.

intuition vs. intellect vs. intelligence vs. insight

Intuition is one's instinctive sensitivity and awareness.

Intellect is one's mental capability to understand.

Intelligence is one's ability to decipher, distinguish and differentiate.

Insight is what one comprehends from one's perceptions.

Given these distinctions, it would seem that intelligence and insight serve one more than the other two.

While intuition and intellect are valuable and even admirable attributes - intelligence and insight are how we express and apply what we experience, know and understand.

initiation of fire. . . .right of passage. . . .Happy Easter!

go forth and multiply. . . .rejoice. . . .prosper. . . .live in abundance. . . .